Dear World...

Dear World,
Does anyone even read blogs anymore? I started this blog because I find the need to express some things that I can't anywhere else (such as social media), but I'd like some feedback. If it's supportive. And if anyone ever even reads this. Just putting it out there might be enough.

So I won't lie to you (why would I? This is an anonymous blog.)  Things aren't great in my world. I'm turning 50 this week. I'm totally unprepared. I looked for a self-help book entitled "Growing Up at 50," but apparently none exists. So I guess I have to navigate myself through these scary waters.

The status quo, like I mentioned, is not good. The one positive thing I can say is, things can only get better! At this point, I don't have a lot to show for my 50 years. I'm:

• Depressed
• Alone
• Unmotivated 
• Underemployed 
• Unhappy 
• Overweight 
• Messed up psychologically 
• Unhealthy 

I'd like to start the next half century with some hope. (What is hope, anyway? I'm not even sure what it feels like, to tell you the truth.)

So I'm trying to make some positive changes. This blog is one of them. Starting MoodGym is another. I'm trying to eat better, and I've started exercising. But I have a long way to go. I weigh 170 lbs. I don't have many close friends. My house is a mess, and I'm having a very hard time pulling myself together to get it straightened up. I haven't put away my laundry in months. Dishes remain stacked in the sink.

Like I said, things can only get better. I'm hoping that by putting these thoughts "out there," I'll generate some internal motivation or external support to get things done, and make healthy changes in my life.

Peace.